PAD Challenge Day 23: love&war

PAD Challenge Day 23: Write a juxtaposition poem.

love&war

I wanted to love you more.
I mean I want to love more 
love into you 
but I'm exhausted 
from the stressed feelings 
I conceived and 
the strained patience 
I'm miscarrying from 
overloving you so lovingly.

I can't even afford 
to subtract more love 
from the little bit 
of my love leftovers.
I'm completely depleted 
from the 
"for the love of you" 
type of love. 
The love flow I have 
is not sufficient 
to sum up what you 
need to be for me. 

I wanted to make 
love with you again.
Completely redefine intimacy 
for all that it is worth
to what it never 
physically was to us...
Before you and I happened 
Clearly, not justify, but clarify 
every flaw between you and I.

Make it where 
plastic and foil hearts 
are not even generous 
to show and tell
because love words 
in action was our bond.

I wanted to go beyond
your sweet words
mistaken as aloe balm 
to heal me better after 
innumerable insincere 
apologies for your 
love errors.

I'm talking about 
making love without
open wounds 
salted from the past,
constant pressure 
from repetitive conflicts; 
and incisions to the soul 
from one's love selfishness.

Make love 
with limited 
imbalanced cycles of 
misunderstandings,
and more self-awarness 
of our own emotional challenges 
and power struggles.

But somehow,
I'm the one constantly hurt...
Raising red flags after red flags
of destructive patterns 
because they are not 
kneading us into 
what I thought 
we could become, 
Love.

So Love, 
I surrender to this war.


💜D'ElegantOne 


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